As I continue to feel the compulsion, even calling, to live my life in the open, I have pulled back quite a bit the last week or two. It's easy to put it out there when God is blessing you in obvious and admirable ways. It's even easy for me to be open when I have a bad day or even week. It's hard to be honest when it starts to turn into something more lasting. Nobody wants to hear me whine about how hard life is.
What's more, I think I am most ashamed of just how self absorbed I am finding myself to be.
This is a post simply to keep me posting and to be honest when I don't want to be. I am completely wrapped up in myself right now. Please pray that God will grant the strength and grace to grow past the horror of the ugliness of my soul. It's gross!
I'm there with you too, bro. It sucks.
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